Release Date for the Book

Just incase you forgot or didnt know.... The Evolution Will Not Be Televised! will be released on 1.1.11! Starting off the new year with a bang!

Freedom's Trap

How can you be free
When you enslave your mind?

Lost in Imagination

Lost in Imagination

I cannot see
But I am not blind
I cannot think
But my mind overflows with thought
These feelings I feel
Are they truth
or are they just a figment of my ever-decreasing imagination

In my dreams I am one in a million
But in reality I am one of the millions
A face among faces
Starving for once lone chance
But always finding an empty plate

I am suffocated by the unknown,
Leaving me breathless
I am fighting in the war of all wars
Battling against something I cannot see
And losing
I am desperate to put this all behind me
But I remain lost

Childhood Torment

Childhood Torment

I saw the world through a veil and they mocked me
They spit on me
They called me names
They, the supposed kings and queens of tomorrow
The ones who are supposed to revolutionize the world
And shake it to the core
They turned their backs on me
I am only a dreamer living in their world
Dreaming to one day rise above the raging flames
The flames from the fire that they started
They smother and choke me out
Why?
Because I am one who looks to another star and sees things different
And for that they have crucified me

Rundown

Rundown

I cannot rest
I am too caught up in the lifestyle that I live
So much to do
So little time to do it in
It's a race
I run this race alone
But I still lose

I cannot rest
The thoughts will not permit
So much to buy
But not enough money to spend
It's a reoccuring theme
One that I cannot seem to escape

I cannot rest
My brain is in overdrive
Thoughts hold me hostage
And I cannot negoitate release
I want this to come to an end
But I cannot find a way

Acceptance

Acceptance

An outcast to the ordinary
Stereotyped a slacker by society
An underachiever living in an overbearing world
Helpless...
Overtaken by the undertow
Chasing after that one elusive dream
But never realizing

Haunted...

Everyday is all-out war
A struggle with a reoccuring theme
Always dark
Never bright
Destiny is delayed
Equality is extinct
The vision fades

Within the War Within

Within the War Within

I wage war against an unseen enemy
In a never ending battle set on an imaginary battlefield
Deep within the darkest crevices of my mind
but held on the grandest of all stages for your viewing pleasure
and i sincerely hope you are enjoying the show

I cannot succeed in my fight
My epic crusade against time
Time...
My powerful invincible arch nemesis
The odds of prevailing are not in my favor

I am defeated on every conceivable front
In every conceivable way possible
My defenses are too delicate to combat time's brutal onslaught
And I am left in a pathetic heap
Battered, bruised, and left for dead
A victim of  reluctant circumstance
I have become yet another trophy for time's ever growing mantle

In my years I have taken so much for granted
And have gotten away with so much
But everything eventually meets it's end
And time was there waiting for me
Leaving me bare
Mind void of thought
Soul void of hope
Heart void of compassion
I have nothing left to give
And I am left feeling inhuman

I worry about the things I have no control over
Focusing on the insignificant
While time's master plan clandestinely unravels before me
I can only worry about worrying for so long
Before full blown panic breaks out
And time victoriously strolls off the battlefield

My mind spins violently out of control
Fueled by the insatiable hunger for something more desirable
It has refused to grasp anything concrete
Only concentrating on the imaginary

I do not know what awaits me
But I just want to be free
Free of time
Free of the past
Free of my own doubting mind

I've forgotten what it feels like to believe
Sad but unfortunately true
I want to be free to live the life I think I should live
and live it the way I think it should be lived
But for now I am entangled in a mess inside of a disaster
neatly encased in a war zone
Entranced by thoughts of my eventual emancipation

My Apology

My Apology

I am not perfect
I never claimed to be
I know that I have my faults
And that I can easily make mistakes
To those I have hurt in the past
Please understand that it was not my sole intention to hurt you
My heart has lied before
At the time it felt so right
But in hindsight it all proved to be wrong
Emotions are a great responsiblity to handle
I was too irresponsible to handle them
and for that I apologize

Faded Pictures

Faded Pictures

We dared to touch fate's lips
and were greeted with the kiss of death
Maybe you planned it that way
I'll never know...
You'll never tell...
You came
You saw
You conquered
And I am left with a head full of unwante memories

The Bitter End

The Bitter End

Perfume-drenched letter
Sweet in smell
Depressing in content
Left on my doorstep
It reads:
I will always have love for you
but...
This isn't working...
My heart crumbles

Not the Average

Not the Average

You are life
Without you I die
You make the sun shine so bright
Chasing away the overbearing dark shadows
Melting the icy tomb entrapping my heart
I don't think you fully understand what I am saying
This goes much deeper than love
You mean everything to me
You are the reason I put pen to paper
In hopes of composing a perfect poetic symphony
Just to feel the electricity of your smile surge through my body
I am the lover that you cannot see
A shadow caught in the luster of your glow
Lurking in the distance
Searching for your acceptance
But only finding your denial